festival of lights...

yup....its ang pau....

hampers received this year.......

cookies..............

various tyrpes of murukku

assorted cookies........

chocolate murukku..

History: made accidentley wen all the cookies were packed

together wif it... due to excessive heat nowdays..

cause of global warming.. the chocolate cookies melted

and spread over da murukku....thus chocolate murukku

was made....

flowers.........

pics at random .........

One malaysia.... one banana leaf

majlis khas pengawas.....guy who made history

and finally da narrator.... i rarely take a pic of myself...

me.............

moon light, sunlight, tube light ..etc....hehaheha...not that lite.... its Deepavali... this year its just goin to b some moderate one..provided that its almost here...counting on its 32 days left..average of 8 days per subject..if u ask me am i ready for it...for sure not yet... hahah... i feel life is much better nowdays... no more taughts n no more emoness... but still have disappointment...cool though...many things happend recently wif majlis khas pengawas. got da award for da most popular prefect... n tamil society agm where it was a laughter..cause for da first time in history in a TLLS agm no post was given... will give it during farewell...prefects agm comin soon...in my personal opinion ..no one is outstanding or showing any traits of the future captain.,..gosh ..may lord have mercy on them...recently the One Malaysia concept is being used frequently..but sum dind dongs just dont know wat's the meaning but just love to say it.... shame on u.,,, will blog some time later.... sayo nara adios...n to all Malaysian's HAPPY DEEPAVALI..

time to revive.....

gosh now i realise.... 9 months i have wasted playing n indulging myself in unimportant things..especially sumting that i shall have not poke myself into..being confident at one side n doing nothig at the other side..i paid da hefty price..i lost for da first time in my life... im still shell shocked...i have lived a life full of selfishness...... neglecting others hope put on me..n paying importance to things which just kept hurting me... day n nite im crying in myself..sumtimes question arises why i entered form six... but i really have to admit being in form 6 rocks to dA top most...exception to the lifestyle in here which is so hectic...being in da same skool for seven years..must b boring... but i love my skool ..to da very much..BUT I JUST HATE DA PEOPLE WHO LIVE IN IT....this is da place where i learnt what is life... ample of times learning new things.this is da place where i spent ample of time besides home... growing from inmature boy to a teenager n almost touching adulthood... love every bit moment of my life especially da first five years..continuing my life in f 6 is a big challenge...despite living in an environment full of racist people... people who r super selfish, people who just lie...peole who just ignore, people who just r desperate...people who just sweet talk..this n that..as the list goes on.... gosh... i really must thank God for making my path here..as i have learnt alot especially in these alst two year..reckoning the world out there is goin to b much more challenging then whats happening now..thats life..its in my hand to mould it n into a perfect shape...so im goin top give all i got..i must prove my worth to da world ..to all those loved ones of mine..who have put in high hopes on me...dun worry people...my eyes are open fianally n ......its a promise... i will never dissappoint u./.....i believe impossible is nothing.... the next few days is goin to b challenging ..its not goint o b easy eitheir... but im not goin to give up eitheir...blood n sweat should b shed...dun care who says what,....i will prove myself .....i will shut those mouths...n to sum people...who missed me in ur life...time will come wen u will realise that u failed to attain sumting precious in life n thats me..... dun worry people..keep praying for me...im back ...its time for revival..renaissance.... back to those firing days..where nothing is go to stop,.... i know what i wannt n no one can stop me from getting wat i want.... if by any chance if eminem comes across my blog..hope he doesnt make my scripts into lyrics for his latest album.. hahah...i dun wanna cry any more n dun wanna lose anymore..... never mine to b hurt now..as i beleive this is da eage to get hurt...every thing that hurts me...is making me much stronger... for da one who failed to get..i just simply remember this....when u miss a bus,..,.definitely another bus will come.... so just got to wait for it.....yeah......time to burn everthing...time to prove.....4.00

a bad day after all........

da ticket..........

its a normal supertitious belief...that wearing black brings bad luck.... well i dun beleive in this...but mum used to tell me ..black is not lucky... for me... n i shall never wear black shirt...but today ingnoring her advice..i did wear black... today was a thursday n i suppose to have bio tuition at era dinamik.. dad was goin sumwhere urgent ..n he wanted to send me early.. ard 2.30 pm... tuition starts at 4.00 pm....i was there by 2.45pm..wen i reach there...da centre was closed...thats weird... i waited n..... n waited till 4 pm..wen suddenly mr kamlesh came from no where..he was shocked to c me there..he said there was no classes 2day...that was super shocking to me...i know i have to alert m resh as he 2 doesnt know... my fon was not with me eitheir... kept at home..so took a bus which i never took b4..i put in 1.60 n da driver exclaimed..its not goin to town..damn bloody hell..how am i goin to take back da money...luckily another guy entered, i got rm 1 back..unfortunately, rm 0.60 burn..damn..wen to cs..wen i reached there called dad n told him i had no tuiton today..he said he could pick me but how am i goin to b alert wen my fon is not here... damn it..i said to him i will come back myself...then i walked ard changed money by buying cool blog... walked a while,.was looking ard...hmm..things struck my heart ..cing people.. everone wif their companion...but wait..nvmind..not now...sobz..wanted to eat crispy chicken XXL...it was crowded there..so plan canceled...took bus..i put in rm 1.70 but da ticket was rm 1.20,.n its stated in the ticket tis till IPK. depoh......haha who cares///really hoped the ticket inspector does not come.. the bus left..at da bus stop near pelangi..sumting really unexpected happen ... yeah guess wat??? a ticket inspector got in da bus..damn..i was so shocked....my hear pounded...according to the place stated in da ticket..i supppose to have got down way before..wen da inspector came to my place..i just gave da ticket..i was ready ..im prepared for a fight..i paid da correct amount n da driver is da one who slacked..da inspector took da ticket.. he chooped it. checked.....loooked at it closely n gave it back to me...wait..noting happen.,...that guy must b a real mangkuk ...he was not even bothered by da ticket..from this v can conclude... these people are pretty ignorant ..i dont know how he could be hired by da company...a great phew for me..reached home..n as usual kena nag..for this n that... nvmind its normal...... man thats da consequnces of not bringign fon...rather than bad luck from wearing black.............thats written..adios

i tink i wasted some money today for not bringing my fon

bus rm 3.90

cool blog rm 2.40

public phone rm 0.40

bread rm rm1.80

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total rm 8.50

i dont care much of bucks spent..but.... thats a waste....

bored........

nice warning at da door....

i remember last year ard tis time...i went to an open house...this year he is not here... in egypt... got no invitation too.... so no rumah terbukalah....i dont have da real mood to blog now.... just simply ni... i have made records with longest post n all...so this time its da shortest post ever...

wake me up wen september ends

at jb laksa house...... superb posers especially burung

laksa cury

say no to alcohol.......johnnie walker

nice nice nice

a bapok pose....... fingernails colured

inai under my name..,...

another look

here v go baby ...bacardi apple..... original

apple taste

its a toss for sucess

outside cabanna,....the zone

pravind, bryant, me

bacardi boys...one missing in action

it has a while since i blogged... things were goin up n down lately....sad moments plus hapi moments.......its all a mix up...firstly during da august holidays...had a hell of fun...was one of da best holidays of my life.... did little study oni..but alot of play..yahoooo...goin to dielah.... trial over ...did extremely bad.... dunno wat to say ...of all my trial i had written b4....i usually get some marks which shows confidence..but not now..im playing 2much... n wasted my life on one ting which is no more for me now...wen i tink bout it..its just full of emoness... nvmind..i belive wat i did wa rite..i confessed finally.... eventhough it was text oni.... i did have da guts... now i realised why people say expect the unexpected..its true..damn true...sweet n sour is part of life..but i thank God its over...eventhough its very late...i guess its better than never rite...still got time.,....sumtimes even its over its still hearbreaking to c sum things...but i got to face it like a man...its normal.....life have to go on..after all its goit to b difficult finding sumone special in this world especially out of da 99.9 % bitches ard.... if its not meant...its never..... today was a bit of an upsetting day...trials over..had briefing ...then enterd class.saw my marks...failed maths 2.... damn i dunnolah wats happening to me....how am i goin to prove myself with sucha a bad attitude,,,n not studying...damn im goin to die wei...but wait... i can do it.... disappointment sorrounds me 2day... im disappointed wif many people... people who show off, people who tink they r great n have high vocabulary proefficiency, n peole who just dun understand n tink what they do is rite n of course people who desperate to get drunk...i guess its juststupid to get drunk... this is based on experience.... i know whats da consequnces n all...sum may just think its sum experience to do this...but wait ..wat if it causes bad effects to u...stop being an idiot... does alcohol solves problem...its just a burn of money...in da form of water...life is life..live to da fullest for da best outcome..sum may say v just try for once..but look... why dun u say lets try death for once... tink ..b practical... dun tell me u will never drink anymore after that single sip u say u wanted to taste on...thats bullshit people...thats one case... sumtimes wen i sit in my class.. i can hear students walking n singing at da saame time... these people r real ding dongs...if u really wanna sing go ahead ..not in skool ..u have many competition such as one in a million, malaysian idol, mentor, akademi fantasia, jb idol, project superstar n etc..why da fuck u must sing aloud....after all u voices sucks da most...super terrible...moreover its really disrespecting da teachers too especially wen they r teaching...if ur so desperate...go to sum karaokae ...i believe they wont mind u all for spoiling da microfon for such a terribel voice.... or if just want to sing in an open place..go on....u just need a handkerchief...laid down on da floor... n start singing..i believe for that terrible platform perfomance... u might get a penny to buy sum sweets.. next case...sum bastard just think they r great..achieving this n that.... i dun give a fucking damn bout all this... ur just stucked up...egoistic n believe ur rite..n love to correct people...wait how long can u go on like this.... i have my patience level man...wen it exceeds the point... i goin to brake ur fucked up face ... ...haiz..i paid da price for carrying u up those days...nvmind... wen it comes to cocuricullar activities..i mean especially in form 6...most of da clubs n uniform bodies just dun do wat they r supposed to do...interact wif one another, learn sumting new n etc..wat they know to do is...just having farewell parties... and from that they give out post...based on farewell parites..come on..

da goverment have implemented that 10 % of entry marks is based on koko marks...but wats happpening...i tink they should change this concept... setting it up as 10% entry marks to uni based on da ability who can organise a farewell party...wat r da uniform body clubs r doin...da same tinglah...indulging themselve wif farewell..where is da ethics u should implement...u all should have marching , n for medical associated bodies..it will b good to have first aid lessons n all...... people need to rejuvenate.... migrants coming far way n acting as though u have been here long ago....sum get angry for small things that happen around in skool ,,,,padahal u all r just selfish inlcined bastards......u dun even love da skool.... i tink thats all for now..i can go on kutuking people.. but being a human i have my weakness too...so before i sign offf....to her...have a great life... all da best.....;... u will know one day....... gudbye...sayo nara adios

complicated.... love......

its just lame to blog bout the same things in life again n again..but guess wat... the saga continues... i always taught what i c in da movies is just fake...but when i got a first hand experience in it ....then i realised.... yup... i have gone through it 2.... the first time i saw u was last year.... first week of mei ..orientation... yup i agree its not love at first sight...i got to know u much from people..thats when da feelings blossomed... always i just wanted to say things to u...but talkin to u is just a problem.... my balls shrink, n definitely threre's n adrenaline rush...we texted each other...i believe da day i first text u is da day i started to annoy u.... even it may b da most irritating time of ur life,..... i enjoyed every single second n moment of it..i dunno if da feelings blosssomed in u or wat...but it definitely it grew in me... things went way round of wat was expected..... i started defocus in my life... amples of crapping, time wasted, n all.... all was in my mind is u.....after a year i was pretty confident .... things will go n well for u n me... but yup it turn all sour... nowdays u dont seem to layan me like those days u do...emoness feel my life..if u take in account n c each n every post i psoted in my blog...sure in sum part... u will b there..alll da heartbreaking moments, sweet ones n all... fuck.... i just can blurt out tings to u..im just to scared .... yup i paid da price for that...ur off n no more for me now...,.wen i saw that da first time ...i was so broken... man luck never seem to b on my side..sumtimes i tell to myself that its u or no life for me....but i have to b realistic now.... there is life after u....definitely..if tisis gone to..i have to rejuvenate.... yeah man....its GAME OVER... ur wif sumone who will cherish n take good care of u forever,,, while me ..... growing beard,...n on da verge of taking alcohol.... to forget u...but da wounds that have cut deep in my can never b treated......everytime... i stand up straight.... i say to myself i wanna talk to u... but when i c u...i just get scared of... n never do it...im basically a coward in my life...a coward who is just scared to approach u..the chances was taken by people...who i can say almost on da verge of victory...i have started living in da world that i believe u n me r together...but nope ...ur not meant for me... its just over...it will b easy said that i will forget you...but the truth is no...i just cant forget u.... when i was given da exam papers.....i just wanna write ur name on da answer sheeth... cause all i can think is ur name.,.... but beleive me...its nver goin to b easy....yup every single second of my life im tinking bout u...even to this particular second....i do want to tell u how i feeell..... but i just dun have da guts for it...... u will never understand me...but for sure one day u will know bout me...n wat im goin through ...da images , da sacrifice n a pain...its just complicated..... there it goes ..another tragic end of another story..... i just cant understand..... i had so many things in my heart to pour out..... everyday i have been suffering....but i guesss its da love for u which has blinded me....but ..haiz...u will never know anything.... tears dropping internally.... i guess i have to cherish the ones who .love me..than cherishing the ones i love who dun love me in back... gudbye....n LOVE U.forever..... i dedicate this post for u baby...... sayo nara..... n all da best in ur life.... unimaginable life...... sobz.......

Sick

throat swab n blood test results

nope...not sick of life, sick of love ,sick of people neitheir sick of skool...im sick now... it all started last week friday...after lepaking wif aiman... reached home quite late...by nite..my body was aching....my mom said i goin to get fever...my sis got fever two days ago... i went to sleep early tat morning.. da next day wen i got up.... i felt very heavy..body ached liked hell..i got up n got my self prepared to go for SDJ IU.. i was so weak ..after IU went tuition... nothing seem to enter my head... wen i reached home..i got myself changed n off i went to bed..dad woke me up n brought me to da clinic...da doctor took my temp n it was 38.8..oww goodness... i was afraid it was H1N1... he asked me not to worry n c wat happens next few days... today.. wen i got up...im still having fever...dad was worried n rushed me to da clinic... i was checked for H1N1..throat swab n blood test was taken...after a few minutes i was asked to c da dcotor again wif da results..wen i n my dad enterd da room..da doctor exclaimed..its not a good news..gosh all i could think was im infected..but it seems its not H1N1 but my blood platlets level has gone down significanlty...meanig it might b denggi...damn hell... just last january before da skool term started i was discharged from hospital for denggi..n now after 8 months im classed as denggi suspected...gosh.... 2moro bloood test results will seal it all...hope its for good....

Finally...its time for a post....

dirty, old, rusty,wordless,..yup it has been a while since i posted sumting in my blog...waited so long for this moment...had so many tings to blog...like events happening,heartbreaking moments,stressed out, n much more..but had to put on hold all this...cause...was waiting for da rite moment..but, wen da moment was rite..its modem problem plak..so finally..da time has come...yahoooooo...this is my 100th post...its a century... it has been a year since i opened this blog..one of my valuable asets in life...a place where im free to wirte,criticise people, pour out, n bla bla..so here it goes.................


H1N 1 ALERT

wearing mask...n .........googles???

H1n1 has caused da country in uproar.... malaysia is one of da countries with da highest rate of cases recorded daily..not forgetting da casualties 38....updated.till da time im blogging now..being in johor where highest cases of H1N1 is being recorded daily.this virus has statred spreading... n has not missed EC... 2 guys in f3 kena ...can b seen a clear situation in skool... teachers n students wearing mask... using sanitizers n some even takin vitamins to boost their immune system..why they are doing all this??? yeah they r doing this to keep themselves from being inflicted wif da disease.. n simply said... scared of death...... so papers n statistics says..about 20-30% of Malaysian will kena......all i can do is pray...

big n small....

hapi 19 bday gurl........

new pet in 6AC...rodents.... name???? i don wish to mention

no pornography..... dogs fucking... better watching this than wat happened in da morning


SENTHAMIZH PUTHIR

final arrangement before da big day.............

for da past one month.... my head was just like cracking... i guess it cracked too... headache everyday...tiring.. but it was such a relieve wen it was over...phew... i was doing so much work..it was like a one man show... running here n there..ample of times goin to da office to c pengetua..... was seriously down everyday... getting scolding..cing unsincere board members... n sum have to b forced to do da job.....had to get sponsors too... all i got was scolding...n ruthless comments saying im a useless leader n all.. i dun care...finally it was over ...had a few problems tat particular day...especially da explore race... two winner were declared at two different place...had to manage it.... sumtimes i do regret... making sum decisions ..i had to take risk n all.. but finally... erhemm'...people just cant understand ... attendance was pretty poor... about 100 i guess...was expecting 500.....laughter man......and after all was over...... yup a cup of teh tarik to put da finishing touches to it..... every sip brings a meaning... tats true ,its damn damn true....

national drink.... love every drop of it......


INTERNATIONAL UNDERSTANDING DAY(IU DAY)

a week after my event...it was time for my best buds event...... IUDAY... at spastic hall... i entered...err....heheh..censored....hahah...pravind was in jb 2... tat particular day had to rush there... had to sent mum to pelangi .... event was pretty good...but da food was very bad..it was resh's day(da sole reason why i went)..v cheered him throughout his speech..later on sumone missed for sumtime came..it was no ohter than Pyan.... love that guy...watched da performance and all..had sum quality time chatting wif pravind... dinesh didnt talk well tat day... dunno why..... i got award for da best dressed male...hahah generally because of my buckle.SUPERMAN.. it was my first n last IU day as a student... great job resh...

vemal,pravind,me n pyan

LOVE LIFE......

yeah... that wat has been bothering most for da past few weeks..i taught of giving it a break... after so many slacking..wanted to start afresh..but.... i guess its almost over..just like standing on a cliff wif one foot...many thigs happen in JUly...so many hertbreaking moments... things seen causing me emo... just imagine da gurl who u taught is ur life, da gurl who u taught will b there for u forever, da gurl who symbolise hapiness, da gurl u loved..is just no more for u... just can imagine tat...cause all i could tink is shes mine... but things not goin smooth as expected... hearing rumuors n all... saying..this n that..i dun believe anybody except u... but..u seem to show interest there too...i was relly down ... never that down in my 19 years of life... just cant do any work.. to make things worst ..manny things happend few days before senthamil puthir...especially wat happend wednesday... studies deteriorating... kept tinking..every single second of my life..im tinking of u..even now 9.85 pm 13/8/09..i dunno u no or not...but.... dunno wat to say... ur taughts deeply embended in my heart..sumtimes da question ...how i wished i was earlier...keeps playing..whatever it takes...hope u b hapi always..n to that guy...hope he keeps u well.....but whatever happens..u taughts n feeling will never b erased from my memory..every second i spent wif u ....migh have been irritating for u...but for me...every single moments is so memorable... many people ask whose tat gurl who caught ur eye... nevermind let it remain secret... i dunno u know what i m feeling r not...i dun wish to tell anyone this matter...as no one could help me..all of them buzy wif their love life...oni two souls understand me...no other than da twins......im still schocked.....i just cant bleieve it..i was going well rite..how come all of a sudden...things change so quickly..so down...tears dripping...i will never forget da adrenaline rush i had everytime i saw... n not to forget da first time v went out..all da slacking i did...n... is it game over..... some say its over, some say it has just started..n if u ask me...i say its complicated..i just relly dunno wats going on... im basically a coward....in this matter... whatever it takes...its goin to b over soon ... trial less than 3 week .. n im not even prepared...another screw up i guess..STPM 3 months time..dunno wat am i doin... there r many things i wanted to blog out..but dun seem to come out now..so thats all for now.... not to forget a band 3 for MUET..relly sick that time... LOVE SiCK....and a vodak last wednesday,..,all da best....

whats happening????????????

past few days have been really hectic...having prefects orientation for lower six n f4... dunnnolah ..this people r here for one reason oni..its just for da sake of name n power.that goes through..for this past few days..i have been really hot tempered.... scolding junior n my fellow board members...things are not going well 2...senthamil puthir preparation goin freakin slow...amid its just few days away...fuck shit...yesterday was wednesday... so with this new botak hairstyle..n small janggut i step in skool compound wif BSMM shirt.. pretty boring day... during recess there was this guy who wanted to fight wif dorai.. luckily managed to stop...haiz... had mpm..afta mpm went up... i could c da chinese community in f6 gahtering in classes... must b some so called meeting...gurpreet forced me into da BSMM meeting.. waited n finally da meeting started..like always...these people..so uncivilised.. talkin in mandrin... fucklah..im an induren here...cant u c...yeah they did sent sumone to translate..come on lah... this has been goin on for years...eversince i was in form 4..not oni here...but even in district level..got to recall....thfew years back..this is the time wen i n kavij established ANTI RACISM LAGUE>>inside a camp near blok dekat astaka yang sekarang sudah takde.i wonder..wheteher im stranded in china or wat... english is da universal language ..then why use mandrin when sum non-chinese r here...woi..if cannot speak .. then go to foon yew skool lah..this is English College man... sedih sial...errrkkkk.....was pissed ..so just lashed out n went tepian tebrau wif alaga...ate there..before heading back to skool to attend orientasi sebelah petang..on da way singgah kat jeti...got geng fight...its indians vs malays... sad man...wen is all this goin to end... will concept of one malaysia suceed if this keeps goin on...racism everywhere...fuck ...fuck...fuck... 2day a thursday... so packed..after recess Pn.oo entered... she was emo..scolded my classmartes...i oso kena..after that i emo plak... damn things kept bothering my mind..lashed out of class... had small briefing wif f1 n f2 prefects,,,,sure make those guys hapi...felt better..waited for resh ..n ujun to go makan..but they were late.. so drove to bindus..didnt eat..just sipped tea..each sip brough in various taughts... life is tough..stpm comin soon..not serious....damn...... sayo nara adios...

its time for a break.....

peaceful taman......majidee park

mom's favourite plant..african fern..

flowers every 50 years once...still waiting

its goin to rain soon.............

thats really a huge tosai....its called paper tosai...

mee goreng MUTTON

mee hon goreng vegetarian

roti tisu

restoran vaanavil..buka 24 jam...

today n yesterday was full of emotions.... despair, heartburn, sick, hurting, n much more...fianally got da solution...all i need is just a break...n start back better than ever..for sure..stand up like a man n fight for what i want..thats true.. but now its just a break ,............. so than rather snapping pics of events n people..n etc..its time for sum pics of my own taman ...n not to forget da food.... all right people...im back , better n stronger than ever... i will win this time...confidences soaring high.....there's no defeat..i know what i want n no one can stop me from gettin it....IM BACK... this is my 98th post... dunno wen i will b loggin after this...so ...its time for a BREAK NOW..c ya soon