hmm...2009

pretty same n lame 4 me...its 2009....its STPM..i wonder i can even get CGPA .atleast 1..not sure whether i will b takin da exams are not....cause its gettin tougher..of course not easier....yeah its so complicated..living in da virtual world...yeah it seems close..but a face-2 face contact proves it all..its all buat bodoh..or just nothing...in dilema .going in gengs..or goin alone.its shy...its scared..its lame..its lookin down on ownself..tinkin 2 much.its all bullshit...race n look plays n important factor...u cant still understand all this while i had done for u..oh yeah just forgot...its virtual world rite...i tink if its same..i mean da charges..... sure can one ...but i was taught different charges attract.for good..imagianations run wild..yeah people...if till da last day dun have any moves...is goin to unbearabe pain for all that have been..poured out..all that has been wasted..finally kept just as oni memories...bitter one...FUCK..life ...why its decided..i taught we decide our faith...yeah its witten..i wonder if there is GOD..yeah there is...i was born...in da hospital..in a ward..out of womb... c da world..just like tat...v will never know what happens after death...sumtimes i wonder how i wished i was a baby..no worries..its all provided..love..care...food...sleep....yeah its so nice..tats da best bit of life...not a natural life hater...but have to ....its just starting...not yet game over.dun know what to choose....a or b as long as dream is reached.but when its time if i have to go ...i will definitely go..i got no choice..my life is decided by people....today i want it but dunt get it....tommorow i get it , i dunt want it anymore .but i have to take it..dun know what am i goin to miss.its monumental nowdays..life must go on..but how many times must jatuh in da loop hole..difficult to get up.lah.if paralyzed..gone lah everthing...this week is important as many things are scheduled..about to to take place..heart is heavy ....its sinking...how to float it.its seems like da olden days..no mood no motivation...every second run n counts n never seem to stop..it stops...but when????....yeah so u tink death can solve all..mayb ..its peace..people say to die..but where u go if u die...no one knows if relegion is excluded...no one knows..as no one went there n came n back to tell this story..so every second of life counts..no matter what darkest yet da ugliest....I PRAY FOR U....U R MY LIFE.