dusty old blog

it has been a while ...or shall i say been a long time since i blogged.... no intensity..... nehh.... no mood...but it has been prominent that blogging during events or issues has been norm to me....things r getting better now...have picked up... but declining rate is there...iknow my mistakes... n im afraid i may repeat da mistakes again...well i may have hurt myself through the process...but im seeming to back to da old bad ways of repeatiting wat has happen.....in state of dilemma... i believe watever i undertake...it may or will leave a pain n dissappointment on me...but i throughly made up that watever it is ...im not goin to disappoint THEM..noting comes above this priority..... im missin all of u.... I LOVE U ALL.... n noting can stop from me from gettin wat i want...nomatter how many times i fall....